"Someone Like You" ~ ADELE

I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead." 

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I'm happy yet a little sad that it turned out this way. 

If I wasn't so greedy in falling in love, person after person

I would actually be happy in this simple way.

Rae's settled down with his son,

Eric just had a baby girl and is blessed 

He wasn't my last resort but somehow, he just got engaged today~ 11.11.2011

Dear, dear Oomis Ginavoku...

Things had to fall into place and as how Adele sings it with full honesty...

"Never mind, I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best for you

Don't forget me, I beg

I remember you said,

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead..."

I keep this solely to myself as to what there is to come

"Oh come what may..." 

My only wish is that every single human being to deserve the much happiness, love & to never be lonely. 

 

My greatest fear...is not having someone like you before my time is up...

 

 

 

The moment I touched your hands, everything turned cold and meaningless. You laid so still as if you were in a deep sleep. Although the tears poured down like rain from faces of love ones, nothing could be done. You left with such willingness, and the pain immediately stopped just as how rain would. Like a blink of an eye, the guilt built up deep in this weary heart. To be strong for others, to have lost all hope of not seeing you today, tomorrow, not even till I'm married, made me feel so much sorrow. The older you got, the less I came to visit. Crushed to see you not breathing, confused for the others not able to see you before you took your last breath. It all seems endless, with everyone wished to spent more time with you, to eat, laugh and pray with you. How many regretted not saying the words that they meant to say, that they were sorry for anything that was said, done and forgotten. The birthday parties, Christmas loving, harvest festival will not be the same without you there to welcome us with open arms. The small shop will be meaningless without you there, sitting on your lazy chair and watching your favourite dramas on tv. Things would not be the same for us...It would not be same for me....who very much enjoys your company. I mish you and as we are praying for your safety to paradise, that you display the same kindness on us all too....thank you for all the sweet memories and the treasured time you had spent with us, and most of all...with me. Love your grandaughter.

I did not cry much the day she passed away
Always thought that I could buy myself time to see her when I was not busy
Even then I did not grew close to her
And to regret it would be useless
I used to think that her world revolves around me
That I was her favourite grandchild
Needless to say that I was winning a losing battle
To compete with countless cousins that were born
Earlier and ending up much cuter than me
I was always in the back seat
Not really caring in the world that I was "one" of the grandchildren
Who's grandma had loads of children to cuddle & hug with
There was a time I wrote letters to her
It was pleasant and sweet
Just like I had a pen pal to write to,
Every now and then
Was it I who grew up too fast to find new friends,
To forget such a caring woman such as herself?
The letters stopped coming and going
Our lives went a little too much forward
For now that I weep with my family members
To have lost a wonderful person such as my grandmother
Perhaps it would never be okay
To see a grown man cry
Or a young girl to cry her eyes out
For the sister, wife, mother, cousin, grandma, great grandma
Who wishes to be remembered
Like the way she was alive and healthy
The thought of God bringing her to a safer place
A place where one would call it their paradise
Is finally coming to a close
As the prayers and days are almost up
for crucial parts towards the passing
These are the times that in every heart of every person
There is a sense of loss
Yet the need to grow happier for
the wonderful woman that Grandma
Has always been and
Forever shall be....

I mish you so much even if my actions don't show it....

Rest In Peace, Grandma...

...you won't be forgotten

I guess the dumbest thing
I ever did and
I hope I will never
ever do
is to meet a person such as yourself
The most untrustworthy fink
that I've always seen
which others
fall for
and after it all
I ended up
falling for a jerk, such as yourself
Perhaps the sweet talk
did work after all
It was lame at most times
and yet I just wanted you
not to love you
it was more for companionship
You know the type when old couples grow old
and not have intimacy, but rather
the comfort of each other rather
I never did, I'm afraid
I never did love
someone such as yourself
It was just plain stupid which ended up
pretty simple really
and I was glad that I got to get out
and not to be waiting in vain
for a ridiculous fool such as yourself
Back as to why there wasn't any
love in that connection?
A bastard as one could see
you weren't different
from your brother
after all
you are like twins
just from a different time line
Annoyed as I was
I could finally breathe
Being solo for such a long time
made me realize
I haven't reached my
destination yet
I knew that we would not survive
the distance
I was not weary
but rather bored to my bones
there wasn't anything exciting
about "us"
No Christmas presents
appeared,
just a very much delayed text
saying
"oh yeah! Cheers to you"

I've moved on
and now you're no longer
on my friend's list
I glad for me
.....finally!

There are some things that I will never forget...the last 11 months has been a blessing with you all. Even though there were hardships along the way, and then others have found their way out, it will always end up in tears of sadness, yet a relief in all hearts. So to you, I say "Celebrate Life as though it was your last. Never give up on the things that were meant to look onward. Find peace in your hearts and speak more of kind words to each other"
The time when you want others to stay on, it may not be possible. Friends move along to find greener pastures and others are left behind. Some may sought in weariness and end up counting on the others that have no heart to stay on. It is difficult to keep a child at its normal height and weight, and yet each day, the child grows. Bursting with energy, as we have lived before...roaming in new open spaces. Oh how we would love to venture out and try to find our comfort zone...until then, let us take a trip to the foot of the mountain, to enjoy each others' warmth for the very last moment...I will mish you all dear friends that I've known since 2006, right here in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. May the Good Lord bless you all and keep you safe.

Sixto Rodriguez ~ I Think Of You

Just a song we shared, I'll hear

Brings memories back when you were here

Of your smiles, your easy laughter

Of your kiss, those moments after

I think of you

And think of you

And think of you

Of the dreams we dreamt together

Of the love we vowed would never

Melt like snowSixto Rodriguez ~ I Think Of You

flakes in the sun

My days now end as they begun:

With thoughts of you

And I think of you

And think of you

Down the streets I walked with you

Seeing others doing things we do

Now these thoughts are haunting me

Of how complete I used to be

And in these times that we're apart

I'll hear this song that breaks my heart

And think of you

And I think of you

And think of you

And think of you

And I do

When I was younger, mum used to pamper us with goodies..and the best ones were on a hot sunny day, my siblings and I would always have creamy Ice Cream in special transparent bowls, just like the ones in this picture. It had musical notes all around the bowl, and we would put about 3 scoops of any flavour and go wild eating it.

Although I wasn't so keen in fruits when I was WAY high, having Bananas with the ice cream means so much to a kid....especially me!

Having a banana split, but mum chopped them to smaller bite size and I'd mixed mine with my desert. It didn't matter if there wasn't any Hershey Chocolate Drizzle or chocolate sweet flakes for the topping...all that mattered was to have ice cream in that Musical Bowl....

My sister would always like hers in the bowl with Purple coloured musical notes and it didn't matter because I had mine in the blue one. We'd all wolf down our ice cream and always begged mum for seconds.

*Sigh* the memories of Sunny Days, Ice Cream and that colourful Musical note Bowls....its like being a kid all over again... NEAT!!