There are some things that I will never forget...the last 11 months has been a blessing with you all. Even though there were hardships along the way, and then others have found their way out, it will always end up in tears of sadness, yet a relief in all hearts. So to you, I say "Celebrate Life as though it was your last. Never give up on the things that were meant to look onward. Find peace in your hearts and speak more of kind words to each other"
The time when you want others to stay on, it may not be possible. Friends move along to find greener pastures and others are left behind. Some may sought in weariness and end up counting on the others that have no heart to stay on. It is difficult to keep a child at its normal height and weight, and yet each day, the child grows. Bursting with energy, as we have lived before...roaming in new open spaces. Oh how we would love to venture out and try to find our comfort zone...until then, let us take a trip to the foot of the mountain, to enjoy each others' warmth for the very last moment...I will mish you all dear friends that I've known since 2006, right here in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. May the Good Lord bless you all and keep you safe.

The highlight of my life...soul mate, toy, a visionary tool to the world outside the reality that hovers over us. Yes, this is "my precious" that has been man-handled to perfection...and now has recovered from a ribbon technical problem. *Whew* Thanks to Toots and Kojak for a speedy recovery. You guys RAWK!!! Now, I am no longer insane with all the nonsense of guessing who is text msging me from the ole' Nokia 6600. Hahhaha...the sadness but it did save me for a good two months. This baybee has been taking awesome pictures you just can't imagine:: Check out "Boonchie's Sprinkles" on blogspot.com

Anyhoots, its back with the In...just in time for Luna's birthday...yipee!!!! Upload, upload and UPLOAD SOME MORE PICTURES!!!

JA MATA NE, TOMODACHI NE!!

The friends that can never be replaced ~ One Borneo Team

(left to right back row: Kip (KKIA), Dotts, Bob, Zanan, Rudy, Kumar, Verna)

left to right front row: William, Idiani, Ahmad, MOI, Amy, Fiza, Yeb)

Ahmad, Alexis, Bob, Dewi, Rudy and Amy (front)

The managers who were pretty much involved in the HOO HAAs of One Borneo

* Amy, Zanan, Fiza, Moi, Verna *

(duration time spent: July 2009 ~ January 2010)

Celebrating our sucess as a team for the achieved ADT in Starbucks Coffee,

a good 400 + 300 bucks to spend and on top of that as well,

celebrating Zanan's *surprise* Bufday

*Sigh* A moment to remember for a long time....I mish you fools...hahahaha :D

So cheers to good friends, for the good and also not so good times.

The blessings and hardship we receive as a team,

As we go on, we'll remember

all the times we had together...

And as our lives change, from whatever

We will still be Friends Forever..

I love you all, my dearest of dearest friends....One Borneo Team *sniffles*

I really couldn't wait to get out of my own country and actually welcome peninsular as my escape from the reality world. To be away from the hectic schedule, away from people that I spend 24/7 with, to be away entirely from the headache and heartache that has been eating me up slowly for the past 3 years. Yes, finally I could get away and breathe little by little intake of oxygen and just be on HOLS with the fams. Brader couldn't make it with us this trip and that's okay. Actually, missed the flight by ONE freaking day, due to sistah's hiccup and busy schedule. A loss on RM502 just madly and desperately wanting to escape this place, even if it were just for 5 days. The thing is, it will appear that I do not want to continue on this journey of self- discovery because after all, it came to a conclusion that this is not the kind of life that I want to look up to for the rest of my life. "Spark" has been doing most my work load and I am grateful for that. "Deah" couldn't care less on the things that are vital just because I have a shitless attitude at the mo. I mean seriously, Spark has been the person who understands me and has been my mental support, to the extend that he's doing all for me...in order that I do not leave this forsaken company!! I got all teary-eyed just trying to console him while I'm here on vacation with my fams...but at the same time, I just want this nonscensical lifestyle to be OVER!! I mean, how can you as a person try to maintain all your partners to stay on, and yet the workload is unbearable that the GOOD ones want to leave? I'm not saying me for say. I'm saying that the system is getting way on top of one's head that one does not progress the way that she should be progressing! Its' insane to know that every little thing is been recorded and with the freaking variance countable for, makes the anxiety attacks more frequent than ever. It is something that one finally realizes that as one progresses further up in the company, it is no longer praise worthy of, rather the efforts done are all in vain, which includes trying to keep up with the freaking time frame and at the same time to allow another deadline to overcome the mind, which is equal to a person's mental state! This job is for the obsessed, the "Gung-Ho" people and for those who see this as a dead end to life's financial freedom. If a re-shufflement is to be made within this period, I welcome it very much but I will wash my hands clean to move on. The people that comes to mind will leave me at ease and soon, I will start over to the next chapter in life.




FIN..

There would be a day when I will look through the glass panels of the store and will not be able to imagine what they do behind closed doors. It would be the time when the slightlest problem that I will not be able to help any of my friends with. It will be the time when I can only reach the nearest is at that wooden door that separates all baristas from ex- partners. It will be the time when I will not be able to smile from the bar at the customer and say,"How was your day sir/ miss?" or even," I didn't catch your name just now. Are you from around here? How was your flight from your country?" It will be the time when I can finally be THE customer and get response from the baristas that will greet me within the 30 seconds time frame and call out the drinks within 3 minutes. It will be the time when I can finally relax in normal clothes and surf the net endlessly, provided the WIFI is in excellent mode. Then there would be sad and undenialble part where I will feel utterly regret on the deepest side of my heart that I left out of frustration and not satisfation. However, there would be a sense of freedom, a sure peaceful and huge relief that will flow through this aching bones. This patience is wearing me out, as I look forward to it more to get a break and not struggle to keep up with nonsensical trackings, cost saving of labour and products, no more perishable goods nor any more of wasting time on following up with people who have no intention to have a tie-in with you, rather that you would fade out, without any hesitation. It will be time when I can sit down, chillaxs and focus on the important details to why people would love to work in this line and yet complain that it doesn't pay enough. Some to the extend to saying that it's like going back to school, and going through learning again and perhaps is troublesome for them. Learning process is good but to get to the top where you have to impress the people who don't care two hoots to what you're trying to achieve and rather focus more on your faults, then by all means, this means this kind of profession is not for the either one of us. The yearning to just be at the bar, to perfect that handcrafted beverage or even to get that yummy sandwich for only RM11.90 before tax in your tummy is all there is to being a barista. This position to be a barista up to management level and making sure the customers keep their complains to themselves is all that the top bosses care in this line. To deliver the experience and have "measurable" results is utterly hard to swallow and yet, you can get a letter for not performing. "To quit is to be a loser at your own game" as what my friend has said to me and somehow, I answered that perhaps that is what I want to end up as...a person to lose to all the challenges that displays before me because I have had enough of all the ragging, endless nagging, and wanting to save one's ass from getting fried from the upper deck. Perhaps the opportunity lies better in the hands of those who are still loyal to this company. Is it ever different in other parts of the world? That you have to tell me yourself as I have yet to work where you are now. As of now, the whole main idea is to break free from this endless shifts and coming to work even on off days. This nonsensical routine will cease to exist and I will not have to look at another unapproved disgusted look from such person, ever.

So desu ne....JA!!

Its true that I am addicted to the sun when it's setting. Will not waste a moment to take out my K660i Sony and snap shots, even when on the go. It has the effect of being so bright, and to shine thru the clouds...suddenly at a blink of an eye, the soft colours set in as the sun sets peacefully...a dab of serenity. Maybe my life story has been like this for almost 3 years. All this while, when roughing it at work, just a mere barista in a coffee culture surrounding and finally getting my BiG break only just recently, effective June 14...I am getting my prayers answered...I am a store manager...after a year plus of waiting, nearly getting anxiety attacks. Survived, got a last-unexpected-wet-beer kish from my former boss, as a farewell luck...and getting sprayed with whipped cream, splashed with low fat milk (expensive too) and splated with coffee grounds..it was very much WORTH IT!! hahaha... I had to wash my hair 3 freakin times...HAIYO!! I reeked of disgustingly sweet aroma...eww..hahha. Definately a huge leap for me, considering I have been a slacker...here and there...laying low. I haven't told him yet...I don't think I will...although I am so very much tempted to. *sigh* Iie...betsoni desu.. I'll be fine...Challenging encounters that I will face, even got a hint of it today...I pray I will survive this life...and for the better... Oyasumi nasai... Ja!!

Nervousness creeping in mah veins
I don't really let it bother me too much
Aching feet, pins and needles
Looking forward to be growing more intellect
and gain more knowledge, so as not to slack
Having the power is not important
Reliable comrades I need to depend on
A new scene, a new start
Competition is not mah game
Self tee-up is never the way to show you're better
Bragging about the best thing you've done
Leave it to others to praise you
Just be yourself, more humble infact
Trust your instincts
Don't be fooled by false pretense
In other words,
Be aware of your surroundings..
Cause as of right now..
I've got new shoes to fill
and Im on mah way to a HOME RUN..
((excuse mah french..SukeBlooorrr..))