Sixto Rodriguez ~ I Think Of You

Just a song we shared, I'll hear

Brings memories back when you were here

Of your smiles, your easy laughter

Of your kiss, those moments after

I think of you

And think of you

And think of you

Of the dreams we dreamt together

Of the love we vowed would never

Melt like snowSixto Rodriguez ~ I Think Of You

flakes in the sun

My days now end as they begun:

With thoughts of you

And I think of you

And think of you

Down the streets I walked with you

Seeing others doing things we do

Now these thoughts are haunting me

Of how complete I used to be

And in these times that we're apart

I'll hear this song that breaks my heart

And think of you

And I think of you

And think of you

And think of you

And I do

Was it the way that the annoying one got to my mind and played countless tricks on me?

Was it that cheeky smile, and have one’s teeth stick out oddly cute?

Was it the small talk that got to the brain and made me think more and more?

Or was it because my heart was so moved that it couldn’t stay away?

Darn it!

I want to stay away but every time it gets more intense

Then I’m helplessly falling

Deeper and deeper, it is hard to climb out

Always I tell myself I will get out of it the next day

But it never comes

As I’m drawn to this younger soul

An attached one for that matter

Then this weight is getting bigger by the minute

It is hard to avoid the fact that I am in love with this being

I can’t tell what’s right and wrong anymore

It is as if I am blinded

Walking aimlessly with a cloud over my head

Then one day as if it was meant to be

Her heart was deceived so badly

For the second time

And this time it was the tears that flowed non-stop

For a friend to be a foe

To watch such a fragile person suffer

This veins pumping blood

As thick as one can get

The soul longer can't contain this pathetic desire

Dressed in rags

What a pity, what a sham

What's the matter with your man?

It will come back to me

This thing called Karma

And I will feel it the most

Whimpering soul is terrified to its wits

I am only human...*

Skittles....red, yellow, green, orange.... Skittles....red for a make up flavour.... Skittles....yellow for the sunshine........ Skittles....green for that sour apple..... Skittles....orange is seriously juicy....... So take your pick before its too late.

It is late...almost 11pm and Im getting the best news that I've been waiting for almost 2 years now. Sadly that it could have worked out but to accept the other's feelings towards something that was more priceless to be sold, the comfort you gave is enough for me now. The feelings that was felt, rendered in the hearts of you and me...a feeling, only felt for a sweet moment that could describe as the most precious thing for me to hold close. It really is alright that we have closed one door and opened another, just to feel a little sane. Yes it was unbearable to wear, and we were going round in circles with this thing we called love, but hardly spoke of it to each other. Then when finally, today the words came out, clear as day. At last we admitted that it was the feeling that kept us from conveying the truth to each other, perhaps a little too late and your heart is closed. Teary eyed? Maybe just a little, on the way to pick you up to go investigate Sherlock Holmes..hahaha, that was laugh. Thumbs up to that movie, clearly planned out properly. I wish I had skittles to munch on....I had a good night out with you. Thank you darls....

Here in Penang (Pulau Pinang) for the first time in mah life. Away from home from the 12-16th October 2009, with so much expectations, tensions, laughter, planting, kick in the mud, rained on, anxieties, scenery, heritage sighting, anticipation, christmas tree making, buffet with lots of cornflakes, scramble eggs, GOoOooOOod coffee, decorating of the lungs, initiating conversations with people (tried with snotty ones: challenging), surfing the net, visitation of stores at Gurney tower, Juro Auto city and hopefully some stores today. The insert on the right is the view from where I stayed with my Starbucks Coffee partners, at Sri Sayang Apartments, Batu Fringgi. This view was taken from the 24th floor, and it is absolutely breath-taking. Right now, everyone's online surfing, everyone as in Kay, Mel, Moy, Gurie, Dee (perviously from KK district), and myself. The only one missing is Ron who had to rush down to Kuala Lumpur to be with his wife and only daughter. His daughter just recovered from an operation, something to do with their little girl's lung/ heart. Pity the sweetheart, as she is only 8 months this October, but a REAL fighter.
I went Penang sighting for old buildings that were done in the 1920s, creepy old house that used to be a maternity house and the rest of that story goes on (still gives me the shivers). Also got to see the "Leaning Clock Tower" situated in the old town area. My good friend, Rudy showed me around Penang Island, and told me that the 5 years he's been staying here, he has seen alot of changes that even the locals don't realise. Expats (although I have nothing against them staying in Malaysia) have been buying up the old buildings and have moved in. However, the way they have furnished the place has not lived up to the heritage, and has more of a modern look. Now, how would I know all these if it weren't for him. He has created more insight that it was too bad that I had woken up way too early that day, and was soon biting my lip to stay awake. Sorry dude! Mean of me...hehe. But we managed to cover most of the great look-out spots, that even your tour guide wouldn't bring ya to. From the low land to top of the hill we went. Sceptical about hawker stalls?? Well, to be honest those stalls are the best tasting dishes that you can try from Penang..the real taste of Hokkien Mee, Penang Laksa and others (me stomach's growling at the thought of those dishes I tried...huhuhu), blended Grape drinks (weird huh?)..all these apart from the daily Nasi Kandar, the dishes that is with all mixed food, veges, and everything; these you can get at the Mamak stalls in Penang.
Also visited the Kuan Yin Temple and Pagoda Temple...LONG CLIMB...Giler! Went to the Penang Hilltop, at Bukit Bendera...famous for the many weddings held there (thru reliable source), and you got to take a slow train/ cable car up to about 700++ meters high. Nice view, seems like as how Eric mentioned it like "Cameron Highlands". To me, it was just like on a hill...SUGOI!! After all that hiking and sitting, plus more time for oxygen breaks, we headed to Gurney Plaza to grab some food to bite at PizzaMania. Seems too good to be true, as there are still some sane gentlemen just like Eric himself, and it was sweet like chocolate..haha. Then up till the late evening, he sent me back to Sri Sayang Apartments, at Batu Fringgi. Nope, not what you thought "would" happen, sadly did not happen. So enough said. I guess, he had grown out of it and has moved on, but I couldn't bear to think that it "was" the end, and yes, I gave him a hug and that was it. All that was running through my head was Damien Rice's Song ~ The Blower's Daughter.So after that, the KK team went to a nearby restaurant (Geee...I forgot the name..haha) and handed out 5B's & MUG Awards recognition by Boss there. We did a little shopping at the bargain shops near the roadside, and headed back to the Wooden Pub, next to the restaurant, to have our beer. Moy and myself were utterly bored that we wrote down our initials with marker pens at the toilet area, and went to have a look at the different money currency posted on the wall, with different writings from people who visited that pub. The pub is situated very near to the road, actually by the roadside, and not that near to the ocean...only by view rather.

Hmmm...will definately come to Penang for a REAL holiday, and also visit Langkawi...woOoOooHooOoooo....save and travel...can't wait!!

a happy feeling to know that all things such as being able to get a response from your partners that they know they're doing good for the environment * a mixed up feeling when a relationship of a friendship can be mistaken for a thing called Lurve * an upset feeling to know that perhaps being in this position can have its many disadvantages and also uncannyly, its advantages * a sad feeling that one has to experience that life may not go according to plan, or have somewhat gone off track * a overwhelming feeling to have when you have all sorts of different personalities and none are to your expectations *

Bugging the very back of mind when things explained halfway and also the most that has been pricking is when things mentioned are always done round-the-bush...it agitates me so. I want to know that these games played out are just games for pleasure, not for the seriousness of a being. I want the real things that a person can feel is the things that keeps you sane, even if the heart keeps pounding like crazy when you're next to the one you care for, very much. I want to a person of value, a person who may be an egoist but maintains all his ground rules firm and not look back on it. I want a job on the coast of nice sandy beaches, and dance in a tutu when the sun sets. *Sigh* what a life to be dreaming of.
That is all that is in my membrane right now...Oyasumi nasai, Tomodachi (^^,)

*sigh*

The sight of you makes me weak
Fluttery feeling in my stomach
A big gulp down my throat
Hands gone clammy
My cheeks blush with excitement
And yet...
I don't think we can ever have a thing for each other

Just to observe one's grace at work
Can just be enough for one's satisfaction
An unseen harmless giggle
Could almost brighten up your day
Liquor in your system
No it's done only in Tea Tasting rooms

Everything i say
Or do
Can look totally wrong in my peers eyes
So what is right for me?
You?
The question lies uncertain
As it is said that
Cupid comes to town
The day after tomorrow
To have a shoot-and-select
For the soul mates

But not for me
Not this year or this time
Maybe i have to wait a little longer..
Longer than you

*sigh*