*Sigh*
Here we are, going about our daily lives...and to what extend?
Holding on to the memory we thought was lost?
Though so close, yet we're drifting apart...even more.
So I think to myself, "How long must I be put on hold?"
I can't stand it that when I'm out of sight, out of mind,
You'd rather have me hang around and not give me hope.
So I really must move on because
I'm tired of waiting in vain.
It's as if my heart will not rest unless
I'm given a valid answer of what I am to you.
We're grown up and we have to start to think less like a child,
and have a glimpse of the reality before us.
Cause if the pieces don't fit anymore, then
what we are to do but just remain....
as friends.

Enough said...

The most sweetest and generous person I've come across
this time around..is so far away from me.
Its his smile that makes me feel at ease...the way his
dimples just appear, especially when he laughs
from the heart.
Though blistered and in pain...I find comfort in him.
He offers protection, and lets me hold on for
support if I'm frail.
He's charming to me...even in other people's eyes,
I know he cares for others.
Kind hearted soul...Shakes his head when he talks.
Grins at something like those "transformers"
we saw at the side of the road.
Widens his eyes when he sees something exciting..
yet he doesn't want to close his eyes
when I'm there.
Smoothest dancer I've ever seen...it kills me that
he's soOo sizzling hot on the dance floor.
One last night to take a breather...
looking at the place below us..
we had to depart to go back to reality.
He gave me the pin he won...
and I will mish everything we've gone thru..
Round the town, in my new white heels..
I will never forget..
For we were strangers....
and are now are in question.....


we are one....just one for that sweet memory.

I mish you...

Its in the air, definitely...whether we can embrace it or just can't live without it..surely we would want it badly one day. Its the universal need that everyone is searching for. Even if you're still a toddler wanting to be cuddled, a teen just having infatuations, an adult who is searching for the right one to be with...it comes in all forms.

Perhaps one would regard it to having the wildest night of your life, while others look at it as satisfaction. Some lonely heart would see it as the only way out and become desperate for its touch..the feeling of it to be inside them. They are not to be mocked at because it's a free world...you're entitled to live the life as you see fit, no questions about that.

Whether we end up being who we are and have the things we want...I am certain it will go well as according to plan. There's no need to complicate things...this is our time, so don't fret where we might end up. Its true I can't see myself not being your friend even if we're not together. How you want it, is your decision...its your free will.

And I can finally say...I'm not searching anymore...I found him...

So.....we get scared once in a while; whether its about getting you're 1st milk tooth out or praying you won't be caught sneaking out of the house. Im scared perhaps that the fact that he may love me because he has a deep long lost feeling for me over the years...and to think Im feeling the same way too. So are we scared that it will not work out or is it a rebound because we're lonely? I need assistance on this....maybe...we were just afraid to admit that we 'do' have the chemistry and we just let it hang in mid air to see whether it'll hit us squarely on the head *sigh*

Growing up and growing out of those teen years can sometyms wear you down...cause you tend to get confused on whether you should be a kid again or grown up. Being back here in Kk, has made me mature and the lyfe style can sometyms tire you out. Tho, its Great to experience different things and meet loads of different people...i guess i tend to lean back to the memories when i was way high..as in CareFree...hehe...not the suicidal bit ;p

What im trying to say is...if we're meant to be; then....go with flow...like you said...there's nuthin to lose...and i believe that's true! *hugs*