Anya Marina ~ Satellite Heart

So pretty, so smart

Such a waste of a young heart!

What a pity, what a sham

What's the matter with you, man?

Don't you see it's wrong, can't you get it right?

Out of mind and outta sight

Call on all your girls, don't forget the boys

Put a lid on all that noise!

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I hear you're living out of state, running in a whole new scene

You know I haven't slept in weeks, you're the only thing I see

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop, I start

But I'll be true to you

I'm a satellite heart

Lost in the dark

I'm spun out so far

You stop I start

But I'll be true to you no matter what you do

Yeah I'll be true to you

Carefree

we use to feel the sense of freedom:

to speak, laugh and live to the fullest

Ending up

lost in confusion, despair and mostly

a little heartache

that fills up the void nowadays

Longing to gain that momentum

to once again

be surrounded by people I love

and care about

Then again...

Its gone, going, gone

I mish you it hurts *sob*

physically drained out from all the bickering
the anguish in people's mind
and most of all,
the consistency of the life
that I'm living in

believe me
when I say that it is
and will forever will be
the people that I've met throughout
these 4 and a half years that has kept me going
with this "almost-perfect-on-the-surface" job
it is just to bad that
I couldn't be their reason to stay
long and perhaps rot with me in this
crazy passion for coffee and its
darn history

of all the things
that I've experienced today
and the past few weeks, months and days
everything has been falling apart

friends come and go
like the breeze that chooses to come
only through it's bidding
mostly friends who are forced
to choose their own destiny
and find themselves some freedom
at last, the lucky buggers

the heartache
to where he must go
and I cannot follow, and sulking
by my own person just to feel sane enough
to live through another day of agony
and more heartache

i want to feel
hopeful and faithful
but yet, i feel more slut-tatious
and end up being a bad person
Go figure!!

Times sure have changed for most people.

The things that were once good and pure in the past,

have turned dull and less exciting than the present.

I've come to realize that coming out

and being honest in a way that it does have its advantages.

The secretive mode has hit one on the head

and you'd wake up to smell the sunshine once again.

It is difficult to look in the eye of the friend who thought it was a good idea to rat out on his peers. At lost of words, sitting there.

Change,

how do we change a leopard's spots? The thing that eats us whole and leaves us boneless to the extent that we do cover up the remnants somewhere, where it is impossible to find. Then again, if just one scientist, A scientist...were to discover that a particular leopard actually changed it's spots the moment it hits 4 years of age and that would be the discovery for mankind. It would even mean the possibility for man to change his ways, to the better. FIN

I didn't mean to have it this way.

I always thought that it would get better

and perhaps in the long run I would finally be happy.

Somehow, as the days past by so swiftly,

I forget the minor details and

the big picture turns out to look a little dim

and also ugly.

It gets sickening that I am still stuck here

and I know I have ask God countless times

to bless me and yet,

here I am pondering on the things that could have

turned out a little more prettier.

That did not happen I guess.

Am I at fault to say that we get what we deserve?

To say the things such as what you do on to others,

they will do the same to you?

I am exhausted to keep up

and still the end of that crossroads,

I stumble and still pick myself up

though tired and thirsting for knowledge.

Mentally,

this is what it appears in the real world.

Trodden and wasting those breaths

although a little satisfactory

but it seems endless.

Its the simple words that has the mind
fragments messed up and
perhaps has made one dillusional
on the petty things we want
from each other.
Yes, we tend to say things when
we're waiting
and waiting,
and waiting some more.
Still we get this
dead silence for waiting that long.
*.............................................................................................*
The person at fault never admits
what one has to say,
sadness that I
too am speechless on what
I have to say.
Rather, I let the other
hold on to the hope too long
and one has grown tired
of my foolish antics
and words.
I rather one to move on,
and whatever the feeling of regret
be put aside and
just us to remain as comrades in this lifetime.
After all,
the words not displayed clearly
can lead to further assumptions.
So to not waste anymore
time of men,
let us be off with this
accusations and move on with life.
Even if you're ready
to move on and say your last goodbyes..
I will still be waiting
with open arms,
my deah, deah, friend.


Till next time, Ja mata ne!!

*chargers to whip up a fluffy cream-o. Artist inspired by Yebster, Will-I-am and Boonch (^^,) *

Never Knew I Needed ~ Ne Yo

(Ooh) For the way you changed my plans For being the perfect distraction For the way you took me I knew that I had, everything that I wanted to have You made me see there was something missing (Oh yeah Oh) For the ending of my first begin Oh yeah yeah, oh yeah yeah oh And, for the rare and unexpected friend Oh yeah yeah oh yeah yeah oh For the way you're something that I would never choose But at the same time something I don't wanna loose I don't ever wanna be without her again Chorus: You're the best thing I never knew I needed So, when you walked in, I had no idea You're the best thing I never knew I needed See now it's so clear I need you here (Oh yeah) My accidental happily ever after (Woah) The way you smile now you've gone for me With your laughter I must admit you weren't a part of "My Book" But, now if you open it up and take a look You're the beginning and the end of every chapter (Ooh) Chorus: You're the best thing I never knew I needed So when you walked in I had no idea You're the best thing I never knew I needed See, now it's so clear (its so clear) I need you here (Ooh) Who knew that I could be? (Who knew that I could be?) So unexpectedly (so unexpectedly) Undesierabley happy. Oh so with you Right here right here next to me! Chorus: You're the best thing I never knew I needed (Woah) So when you walked in, I had no idea You're the best thing I never knew I needed (I needed, woah) See now it's so clear, I need you here always Now it's so clear, I need you here always!

There are many things that people would want to run away from. The many things could lead to disaster, sometimes happiness, and also would end up in nothingness. My friends are moving on with their lives. Many because of being threaten of their position. Others have moved on because of their love ones. Most of them, because of their friends. Its funny how things work out. The moment when I claim that I would get away from this forsaken company, perhaps has made it a worst state in this environment, making it the start of every problem, and soon everyone has set their minds to leave from this line of work. Its the part where I have this quezy guilt in my gut for starting it all. Is it entirely his fault that we're leaving just to make him feel at his worst?? I'm staying on till I get a better opportunity. I may not be at my best conduct nor do I like any of his antics that he does, but he is afterall human. It saddens me that my former boss is leaving. By the 1st week of February, the ones that were close to me, will leave like the mists that stays in the air until the sun shines through and the mists thins, will fade out. Just like this passion to stay on, will fade out. So desu ne...nani??